Formals is in 2 weeks. I need to start working out. :C

Note to self:

• No Starbucks, Jamba Juice, Soda - ONLY WATER
• Less fast food (even though it’s so good)
• Actually eat Fruits & Vegetables (whatever the hell those are..)

I haven’t weighed myself in ages..I weighed myself today and ughh..it’s the highest weight I’ve been. :/ Funny thing is I thought I lost weight. I weighed myself again to make sure I wasn’t making the numbers up..and the scale came up as “error”.

Well, I am sorry for being such a fatass scale. But fuck you.

I haven’t posted here in a while…

Because I haven’t been healthy or been working out.. :(
And I haven’t weighed myself in over a month or two….don’t know if I want to find out or not.
 

— Restart

I literally suck at this. :/

Starting tomorrow I am going to eat out a lot less and eat more healthier. Except for the fact that I don’t know what’s healthy…and hate everything healthy. But I at least should try to cut out all the fatty foods. 

First things first, note to self—>
No more:

• Starbucks
• Jamba Juice
• Soda
• Sweet Tea (only once in a while..) 

These aren’t good for me and expensive as hell. D: 

Let’s see how long this plan lasts..

— Blahhhhhh

I have fallen really off track with my exercise and “diet”. Motivation for schoolwork and gym has dwindled to absolutely 0.

But ickk..saw facebook pictures of a formal dinner and my arms look so fat. D:
Starting next week I am going to stop going to Jamba, Starbucks, fatty drink places in general.

And start doing some pilates at work, and maybe a bit of cardio.

School has been back for 2 weeks now and I haven’t gone to the gym once. D:

Hopefully, by next week when Rush is over and shiz I can finally go grocery shopping and work out!

I’ve kind of fallen really off track with my workout and eating healthy..The good news is that I eat out a lot less, since my dad has been home and cooking.

But when school starts up, I am going to try and work out at least 4 times a week! I need to stop coming up with excuses and just get to work!

There are some days where I barely eat 2 meals because I just don’t feel hungry.

I’ll eat at like 3pm and just forget that I am hungry until it’s like 11pm and then I am just like fuck it. I have a pretty unhealthy lifestyle. And I use to never eat breakfast.

But right now, there is seriously a pregnant woman stuck inside my body. or i have no self-control. Probably both. It’s also probably my period. But this past year I’ll just have weeks where I can’t stop eating. It’s like i am eating to feed my non-existant baby.

HESGSEUGKHSEKGESHS. So fucking hungry all the damn time. Even after I eat a meal. And drink a shit ton of water. What the fuck. Pregnant Woman Be Gone. You are not welcomed.

— Getting Back On Track

Last few days I’ve been eating like a pig, even though that would be an insult to pigs. I am completely off track and it’s a little disturbing. I keep making excuses for myself, but it’s all just complete bullshit.

Tomorrow - Cereal With Skim Milk in the morning, fruits - apples and bananas, Slim Fat, Roast Beef Sandwich with egg.

With at least 45mins of cardio and 20 mins of strength training.

Because no one is going to help me lose weight. I can only help myself. And wow that sounded really lame. pfft.

Ehh. I sort of lost motivation the last few days, but stalking fitblrs right now has helped me regain some motivation.

30mins of cardio and 30mins of strength training. :C

I just got to keep telling myself that progress is slow, but I will eventually see it.